I am so blessed

I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis over 30 years ago. I was frightened because I didn’t really know what that meant or what would happen to me. A friend of my parents had MS, and I could remember overhearing someone say when I was very young that it really would be better if he just died. I didn’t know if I was going to die, and I didn’t know what would happen to me if I did. I had gone to church all my life and knew about heaven, but I didn’t really know what I had to do to go there. When I was in college some friends invited me to a prayer meeting, either thinking that I was already a Christian or (more likely) knowing that I wasn’t but needed to become one. I saw things in their lives that I wanted in mine and in 1981 I gave my heart to Jesus.

I am now disabled and spend at least twelve hours every day sitting in my wheelchair. My physical condition continues to deteriorate, and I need help with all my daily care including bathing, dressing, and usually eating. My physical body doesn’t work very well any more, but physical healing is not something I think about very often.

Of course I believe God can heal me if that is His will. Nothing is too hard for God, and if He chooses to heal my physical body He can do so in an instant of time. But physical healing is not the greatest desire of my heart, nor is it usually the focus of my prayers. My greatest desire is that God will use me – however and wherever He will.

I’ve been so privileged to see some of the ways God has used me, many of which simply would not have happened if I was not disabled. When I started college I wanted to be a music teacher. I became disabled just a few years later and gradually found that music therapy was really the path I needed and wanted to follow. My career as a music therapist gave me opportunities to share the love of Jesus with more people than I can even remember. My involvement with Special Touch in a few different capacities has also given me many such things as opportunities and has helped me grow as a Christian. God has shown me that He truly can use “the weak things of this world.”

Since I stopped working in July of 2007 I’ve been searching for new ways that God might use me. I am volunteering at the facility where I worked and praying that God will lead me in other directions as well.

I have already received the greatest (and only eternal) healing I will ever have on this earth. God saved me and healed my soul over 25 years ago and has given me the sure hope of eternal life with Him. Physical healing, which might make my life easier for a time, can’t begin to compare with the promise I already have. I am so blessed.

Nancy Vyvyan